I HATE PEOPLE THAT DON'T DO WORK.


ugh. that's really all I have to say. i mean all of yesterday was busy as hell so it really irritates me that some of our employees really suck balls. 

Making (yet another) attempt at this legit blogging thing.....

So here we go, again. I haven't been here in a while and I find it oddly comforting to come back to it. Even though there are bitter memories to this particular blog. But whatever, it's all in the past now.


I cut tumblr out of my life. For multiple reasons. Mainly because tumbling seemed to create a lot of unintentional and a lot of awkward friction? tension? I don't know what term I'm looking for....


What I'm trying to say is that I got irritated with the idea that I was being questioned about why I was making certain posts. Err. More like I'm irritated with the idea of trying to explain myself when it really isn't necessary.


It's not as if I was posting anything extremely offensive, suggestive and slightly vulgar at times maybe, but nothing that needed further explanation. I mean it's freaking tumblr who cares "why" if you do like it, just ignore it and keep scrolling through your dashboard....


Anyway, that's that.


Not to mention tumblr was spoiling me, I mean just reposting/reblogging shit that only slightly resembles my thoughts and emotions is pretty freaking lame. I need to get back in touch with using words....

Ugh. I don't know what I'm doing with myself. I've never really been good at dealing/coping with various emotions. And it's even harder to try and express what's in my mind. 


Well, at least with certain ideas it seems impossible.....


But to get to the point, my grandfather passed away the night of December 22nd.....and I'm just stuck in a state of pointless brooding.


Sorry to be ranting here, but I'm really hoping that saying it "aloud" will help get some of the tension off my chest......

Omg, Talk about CLUELESS.....

I ignore her for months, and suddenly she wants to talk again? 


WTF.


Ugh. How can she not understand that I don't want to talk to her? >.<


Always so blind to the obvious. Oh well.


It's almost christmas. So i guess that's a fun thing to look forward too. Lol

Bitchen....

Yesterday was Justinn's birthday, you should have been able to wish him a happy birthday. But thanks to the choices you made, you can't. 


I laughed all day to myself at the thought/fact that you drove everyone who truly cared about you away. You flushed your life down the drain and you have no one to blame but yourself.


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!!!!!!!!!!

2 years. Ftw.

Has it really been two years?? My my how time flies. So much shit happened back then, sooooooooooo......glad it's over with. A great weight has been lifted from my shoulders now that she's gone. The great part is, she probably doesn't even know what she did to me.

Ah well. She's too stupid. Haha.

Good riddance shitty past. :)

Explanation...

So anyway, to explain why I don't think Nancy is a friend anymore is because she had made this post:


http://www.serenedreams.tumblr.com/post/11984817894/tired-of


Which I made this response:


"Regardless of whom you speak of. Complaining will get you nowhere.

Which also means this post in itself is a mistake…..isn’t it?

Everything that surrounds you should be used to help better yourself. Haters goin hate. So if there is someone in your life whom does nothing but criticize your faults and does nothing to help you grow that’s one thing. And you really shouldn’t associate with that person anymore..

But you should also realize that some might be respectful and caring enough to speak of your flaws as a means to try and help you.

So instead of just pointing fingers at everyone else for criticizing you, maybe you should look to your own reflection and really think about what’s “real” or “fake” before you complain of being tired. Yuh kno…?

We all gotta grow up some time…."

Next thing I know the number of followers I have dropped by ONE person, and that one person was her....

Which I find totally hilarious. I mean, what was the point of making a post on Tumblr if she didn't want/expect anyone to make a response?

Right?

I mean, I get it, my response wasn't exactly the nicest way to say anything, but I don't regret responding. 

So if it's her choice to run away that's fine by me. Lol. I'm so done with her...